I feel so happy this afternoon. I haven't been outside yet.
A friend of mine who smokes, gave me a call. While I was talking to her, the urge was like on auto pilot. Before I realized it, I had reached for, where my cigs would be. There was nothing there but a bottle of water and a bowl of mints.
I pulled my hand back, and shook my head as I realized that I hadn't even thought about what I was doing. It just happened. This is what I meant the other day about being more resolute in my actions. I have to do a better job at being aware of my actions on auto-pilot. I can't have that. Auto-pilot will make me crash and burn.
I am so not in the mood to fail. Every time I feel a withdrawal tweak, and how short it is becoming, it's making me aware that whatever it is, that makes me want to smoke, is dying. I'm happy it's dying.
I like giving myself options or breathing room with goals. With My Quit, failure is not one of them.
I have some thoughts about the ability to quit, how I started in the first place, how many times I have quit, and the mind *f#$% that is involved with the addiction in the first place.
Alrighty...I'm off until later on.
Enjoy your day
Yours in Smokelessness
Won
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