So much has happened since the last time I wrote. Each time I wanted to sit down and blog about my progress, something strange would happen and I would put it off. I am taking this time right nowto write and share. I may be adding more to this post,but I just wanted to get it in today, because
August 27, 2012, is my 10th Month Smoke Free Anniversary!
Yeah, Baby!!
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Where the hell has the time gone? Is it me or has time just put on some sneakers and sprinted? In two months, it will be a whole year that I haven't smoked (Lord Willing).
Soooo where do I begin?
Let's see. I did a liquid cleanse for three days last month. Made me feel totally awesome.
The fast was the thing that made me feel clean on the inside. It was as if there may have been some
residue inside (probably in my mind) and the cleanse just flushed it out. I might share the information on the cleanse in another post as I'm not sure about hyping products in this blog.
Anyway, I started walking again. I lost 10 pounds last time I checked. That wasn't the goal, but that
is what happened. I stopped eating meat. I only eat fish when I want to get some protein. I've increased my fruit and veggie intake considerably.
One of the things that has challenged me since I last wrote, is the condition of my family member
who has stage 4 breast cancer, who I wrote about back in May. Her condition has worsened.
We keep praying. We keep hoping. She is still with us. She has good days and challenging days.
Watching my loved one deal with this situation, is a challenge as one of my major triggers is
separation and loss. When I leave from seeing her, I am tempted to smoke because I feel the need to center and think deeply, like almost go into a trance. I don't want to smoke, but the stress from a lot of things I can't go into, is really pressing upon me.
The desire has been so strong for me at one point that I started having dreams that I was smoking.
I actually had several dreams, not just one. One of them was so real, that when I woke up, I could have sworn that I could smell smoke in my nostrils. I even felt the heaviness in my chest that comes with smoking. Like I shared earlier, I am dealing with the triggers on a daily basis. But my situation is NOTHING like what my family member is going through so I keep perspective and keep moving forward.
I take it one day at a time. Nothing more, nothing less.
To my folks who haven't quit, but whom are thinking about quitting, don't give up. When you are ready, you will quit. Just keep thinking about it. We become what we think about most. You can become a Quitter if you really want to. *wink*. I'm rootin' for ya and remember, I'm dealing with My Quit, One Day at A Time right along with you, if you decide to join us, who have already quit.
To my Rocktober Family, wherever in the world you may be, Huge Huggz!! :o)
Hugs, Love, and Healing Energy to the World (for those who are open to receive it.)
Love & Peace,
Obi
