I am feeling much better than I did earlier today. I had a really good time with the family. There was so much laughter, it never occurred to me that I hadn't smoked all evening, until I took a sip of wine. I did just fine. The thought that I put in my mind was, if I smoke now, I will certainly throw up. That nicotine will hit my tummy and that won't be a good look. :o)
No one even noticed that I hadn't smoked. I guess that's because I really wasn't a big smoker in the first place, maybe that's why no one said anything.
Dinner was so good.
When I felt the pang, I closed my eyes, relaxed my shoulders and just took a few deep breaths and remembered why I am now a NON-SMOKER.
I've decided to refocus my perception of the withdrawal feeling. Instead of thinking, "I want a cig." I will now think of it in terms of my body taking over and the addiction dying a painful death.
Here's something interesting that crossed my mind today. It's a no-brainer, but it negates the thought that we "need/have to have" cigs. The thought that came to me was, "We weren't born smoking or with a cigarette in hand." So, it's not something that we HAVE to have. It's just something we're addicted to.
I'm still itching. Not as much as I was yesterday or earlier today. It's a good thing.
I am staying focused on the bigger picture. I am taking my life back from this addiction because that is all it really is. It's not fun, it's not helping me, it's not loving me, it's not my friend, it's not chilling me out, it's not putting money in my pockets, it's not giving me advice, it's not helping me pick out cute outfits or shoes; it's not doing anything but keeping me addicted.
I am in no mood to be addicted to, or fanatical about, a damn thing.
I am going to say my mantras, do some reading, and drift off to La-La Land.
Yours in Smoke-Less-Ness
Won
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