Today marks my 21st day of being nicotine free. Why is today, or this number so sacred? Well, let's examine. Seven (7) is said to be a sacred number because it is the number of completion. Multiply 7 by three (3) which is also said to also represent completion, and contain past, present and future, and we have twenty-one (21). It is said that it takes 21 days to break a habit. Twenty one days to complete leaving the past to change the present and improve the future, in ones life.
Here is the irony. Today, I really craved a cigarette, more than I have since I quit, for some strange reason. Mind you, I made absolutely no effort to get one, but the craving was ultra-strong. I thought to myself, "The failing feeling of breaking My Quit, will last longer than the rush of the dopamine from the nicotine," and I was just fine. I was fine because it was true.
For those who may not know, I quit CT (Cold Turkey). This was the best option for me, because it made logical sense, for ME. I stress that because CT may not be cool for someone else making the effort to Quit or to Stay Quit.
Like I have stated in my other posts, I don't judge folks for the methods they choose to quit. Who I do judge are the misfits who simply want to make a buck off of keeping folks addicted to nicotine by other means, by making them believe that they are choosing a less harmful means of getting nicotine.
Think about something for a minute. If you were addicted to cocaine, why would you use a product with measured doses of cocaine, in order to quit cocaine? Do you ever really quit, or is this just another perspective of the addiction.
Just a re-cap if you're reading this for the first time; I quit because I wanted to. This is not my first quit. I stayed quit for five years, before a tragedy occurred in my life, to several loved ones. I didn't just wake up one day and do it. I planned a month ahead and smoked every day up until the minute for me to quit. I did a lot of visualization, meditation, and preparation. No, it wasn't easy. What made it more tolerable, those first days of withdrawal, was I refused to fail. This is not to say that folks who relapse are failures. No. Not at all. Everyone is different. It just wasn't an option for me. I am stubborn like that. If I don't want to do something, 9 times out of 10, I won't do it, no matter what it is.
Do I still get cravings? Yes. Have I been around smokers since I quit? Yes. Have I had a drink since I quit? Yes. I've even had the Smoking Dream that jacked me up..lol.
I have given up the lies I tell myself, to justify smoking. I know what they are, and while they made me feel good, they didn't make sense. I just got tired of lying to someone I loved; ME.
There is something that I want to share with folks who are still smoking. If you do not want to quit, then don't. It will only make you miserable, if you quit and really don't want to. However, if you want to quit, do it because YOU want to. The want or desire has to come from within you, to the point, that you will not sacrifice your Quit for anything or anyone.
It may sound like bullsh*t, but it is okay to take YOUR QUIT, one second, one minute, one hour, at a time. I did. The interesting thing about time is that, it keeps moving, even if we don't want to, or are finding it hard to make it through. Time is gonna keep moving, whether we like it or not. Why not take advantage of that fact, and roll with it.
I'm not gonna bore anybody with horror stories about smoking. I didn't want to hear them when I smoked, so I'm not gonna do it to anyone else.
For you guys who are newly Quit, hit me up in an email or leave a comment. Let me know how you're doing. I'd love to hear from you.
And here's something funny, I don't know if it's my imagination or what, but I'd swear that I am walking faster these days.
Okay, I'm sleepy now. I'm gonna lay my body down.
Peace, Love, & Freedom,
Waughndaye.
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